Tuesday, October 26, 2004

A Swansong.....

I suddenly lost the interest to write my blog. Calll it really depressing, but alot of things have happened over the past week. I guess this will be the last entry for the month of October or even for the year 2004.

It took me great thoughts to draft out this blog entry. I appreciate the calls for me to be upbeat again. The results are out, we are having a promotion meeting today. Not that it is a big issue, all my girls get promoted anyway (hooray!! There will only 2 classes which have 100% no problem and 3/4 is one of them) everything remains the same, all of them promoted to 4/4 2005 and maybe the seating arrangement will be the same, the familiar "neighbours" and maybe even the class committee will be the same....

The reason why I am so disinterested in the class recently is not because i am irresponsible or what and it is also not that I am bochup but rather I feel that I will have this really sickening sinking feeling if I continue to be so close to all of you. I feel the need to be detached at times, so that it will not "hurt" so much. Ha ha but look at it from the bright side, you will still be the 100% refractory class and most probably you will still going to make your new form teacher, whoever that may be, 100% refractory.

Anyway I should take this opportunity to congratulate my class for getting 1st runner-ups in the rugby carnival, bruised bodies, bloodied lips, broken teeth if any...

I do not know your thoughts about this, but I sincerely hope we close this chapter with a bang. It has been a helluva year and it was great working with you people, even if you people can be SO....
1) extremely DIRTY, with socks, tissues and rubbish strewn all over the place, and I have not even talk about the mind.
2) overly AFFECTIONATE, with your gifts and class spirit and your songs and your generous dosage of enthusiasm.
3) extremely DEFIANT at times, to other teachers I mean. In fact even bordering to the point of rudeness, but never to me :P
4) overly ON THE BALL, with the extra practices, the extra banners, the extra effort
5) overly REFRACTORY, what can I say, a class of mixed talents who work well with each other.

With all these, I will cease activity in my blog. Hopefully I can find the zest to write about things in the new term of 2005. Thank you for all your loyal patronage, it was not easy to get 5000 over hits since "opening shop". Guess to look at the random thoughts of the teacher especially one who offers his 2 cents worth is exciting to say the least huh?? :P

Anyway to all the girls, Failure is just a journey to success. Be strong and continue o work hard, one day you will reap the benefits.

Take care! Study hard and don't forget to play hard too...

Today is good old monday, the start of a working week. I have quite an enjoyable weekend, went to play beach volleyball at East Coast Park, absorbing negative ions, breathing in the salty air, feeling the sea breeze.

Today is also the start of the last academic week before the holidays. The last week I will be seeing my form class. Is it me or is it that I feel that I am getting more and more detached from them? Could be a good thing for me, or it could be bad? Seriously t go up to class and see that the class seems to be a bit "bochup", so aloof. I wonder.

Today's post just don't seems to make any sense as always.

"High" by Lighthouse family

When you're close to tears, remember
Someday it will all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at The end of the day
We'll remember the day
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you
We're gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me
Flying high in the sky of love
Don't you think it's time we started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
And at The end of the day
We'll remember the day
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And atThe end of the day we'll remember the way
We stayed so close till the end.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Teh Tarik

the results are coming thick and fast.
not that i have anything to complain about
just that the girls in my class seems to be desensitised
it seems to some that it is one bad result after another, one more justification to make to the their parents.
Was it really that bad...? I guess so. And I can see they are just waiting for the time and the paper to pass, for the report book to be passed to them and endure the earful for a couple of weeks and to get out totally from the agony they are facing now.
I am busy monitoring, who may not clear the exams, I am keeping my fingers crossed.

In case you are wondering why I have not been in really good mood these two days, it was because of a couple of things that has happened, and of course my precious class is involved in some way or another. Nothing bad, just upsetting.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Teh O and Kopi SU SU and MILO

it is so difficult to write remarks about the girls. It is like you have to praise andlike subjective statements about them when u really don't mean it :P

Anyway I agree that everything about the exams was bad , the results, and of course the "stupid" efficiency of the teachers who seem to have no life and can actually return the A maths papers at record4 days of markings. And for those jokers who missed today thinking that it would be a walk in the park, a stroll in the garden or a crawl in the nursery, well you would be rudely shocked to know that by tomorrow, you will have another 4 papers coming in. Talk about PROFESSIONALISM AND EFFICIENCY! 3 cheers for IJ teachers!!

I am now listening to random tracks on my music jukebox ( currently playing Drowning Pool ' Let the bodies hit the floor") , while trying to compose remarks and as usually I am doing things that I am not supposed to do. Just came back from Track and Field and of course a nice leisure coffee break with some ex girls at StarBucks. Maybe what Jess W said was right, EDIT: Mr Ng... Yeah, it does suck, but hey, it's really been a nice year, and it's nice to know you care ^^, it has been a blast, a different class, a refractory class, a different attitude and of course a different mentality. What can I say, i have learnt as much from you people and hope that you have learnt stuff from me. it is time to move on and part ways..... but as I say it really suck.......

Now playing Eminem "Without me"........


it seems kinda of weird to be back infront of 3/4 and starts to communicate with them again. It seems like we have not have these type of conversation for a long long time. Not that it was any form of conversation but rather a monologue, the harbinger of bad news. Well not all news were bad, at least the class won the coverted Global Citizenry Award for term 4. Way to go!! As for the bad news, they were so bad that I can see that the class have lost their "chirpy"ness. Come on, it is not so bad, the only thing that you have to face will be your parents and always remember your parents love you, and even if they choose to express it in any form of action, please still remember it is still love.

It wasn't easy to be standing in front of a class who I have thought I will be taking them to their Os and finally see them graduate and of course see them in their prom dresses during grad nite. Now it seems they are disappearing right before my eyes. I could feel the bochupness in my bones and my skin; it seems that the faces in front of me will get blurrer and blurrer. It is a weird sinking feeling. IT SUCKS, IT REALLY SUCKS BIG TIME...

Friday, October 15, 2004


My work officially starts today. Well actually it started when I carried 8 piles worth of SS papers painstakingly written by the students. Well I guess the urgency finally settled in as I am now overwhelmed with the SS marking, History markings and congrats the Add maths marking.

Is it me or is it the time of the year when the end of the papers and the giving out of report books meant that it is the end of the relationship with the class? The end of the year is usually a mad rush, so rushed that when you realsed it, the girls are on holidays, you are on holiday and then you are with a new set of students new set of form class and most importantly new set of feelings and expected. I need some solace and peace.

Currently listening to Jay Chou " An jing' or "Silence"

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Behold Bidore!!

Just came back from my trip to Bidore, With Miss Tan, Jacinta and Felicia. Great Trip. Attached are the pictures from the trip. No time and the stupid Blogger refused to let me create a good looking link